Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Stayin Alive

Holy Crap. I've been gone for a while- not actually gone, just mentally gone.

I started a new job a few weeks ago- I'm an actual employee (not a contractor like before), and it's great. I only work till' 1 but I'm always really busy, so my blogging-at-work freedom is no more. I thought having my afternoons off would give me time to blog, but I'm always doing chores or being outside. After spending my morning on a computer, I'm not especially drawn to get back on my laptop at home.

However, this week I am working full-time hours filling in at one of our company's other offices, and I'm bored bored bored. BORED, I tell you! So I decided to blog. I tried to sign on and I got an error message about cookies. Seeing as how my cookies usually burn, I decided not to pursue the issue but rather to try and sneak into blogger without the cookies finding out by signing in on a comments page instead of a main page, which worked somehow, but is entirely beside the point. So, here I am. Alive, and doing OK.

I've been in sort of a dark place lately. After much prayer and discussion (and crying, all by me), Stephen and I have decided to move away from Denver. He's going to join his dad's business, so by the end of the year, we'll be living 1500 miles away from everything I know and love.

I'm torn about it. I know in my heart of hearts that this is the right decision for us and that God is definately leading us to take this course. But I grew up in Denver and I always thought I would raise my kids there. I like just getting in my car and being in the mountains in under an hour. I like living 10 minutes away from my parents. This is my home- I'm heartbroken about leaving. I lost sleep for 2 or 3 nights after we first talked about it, but now I have a peace. But that doesn't mean I'm happy about it. It's been pretty heavy on my mind, and that's mostly why I haven't posted lately.

Anyway, now that I know how to trick my computer into letting me blog at work, I'll probably post more today and tomorrow. I'm so BORED!


ThomG said...

Glad to have you back, even if the mood is dark. Life is all about change, and it sometimes kicks us out of a rut. The sadness will be there, but truly treat it as a new adventure in two very young lives. And stay strong together.

Beth said...

Hi I read your blog and the first thing that jumped into my head was Matt 19v29. I'm sorry this is all so much in your first year of marriage but I agree with Thomg's wisdom life is about change and sometimes it can feel horrible but when you look'll think ya good move! (And if not....think how much fun it'll be moving back!)

Melissa said...

I'm aching for you. I know it'll be hard, but I'm glad to hear that you have peace about it and that there will be many blessings with the move.